#metime
I feel I am a very social person, however my mother since childhood and others in my life have always labeled me as a “Loner”.
I hated going to social gatherings as a child.And my mother (who can meet atleast 100 people in a span of short walk and can talk to everyone of them forever ) called me ” Manus ghani” which actually means I don’t like company of other human beings.
Some People still call me “Shishtha” which means proudy OR arrogant. I infact recently noticed I have hardly made any close friends in past 5 years. I stick to old ones or I prefer staying on my own. I do have lot of reservations or hesitation to make new friends.
I still avoid many social gathering. I make sure I have some or the other excuse to make when I don’t feeling like joining in the groups. Make sure in way that I don’t later feel guilty of avoiding it.
However, Now I think is absolutely okay. I mean all that avoiding and not attending social gatherings. It’s okay not to be very social.Accept what you are rather than pretend to be cool social person.
To continue about me being limitedly social,
I have sometimes also planned some meets or committed to someone and then prayed that this meet would cancel.To my luck that happens with me very often.I probably put in all my energy for meet to be cancelled. And I am not responsible for cancelling it.
Till few years ago I tried pretending to enjoy such meets. However, I felt I was fooling myself. I use to feel bored and exhausted.
On contrary to this I prefer one on on meet with people or friends. Sometimes little close group.
I enjoy my walks alone more than with anyone else.I am okay, if someone joins in. Little contradictory! Isn’t it?
Just feeling awsome with my own body, simply enjoy Rythm of my feat and totally admiring nature.
I try to imagine myself exactly like a wheel rolling down freely 🙂
I love my solo walks and I feel mesmerised with the feeling all day.
I feel I should do more of long walks with myself 🙂
This coming from a woman who is suppose to have initiated group walks in town is little awkward. But group walks are all about my mission.My way of supporting community by providing them with platform where they feel encouraged and motivated.
So the point is ! It’s okay to be not very social ! It’s okay to enjoy your own company ! And never mind if people call you loner! We can always achieve that balance of being limitedly social ! 🙂
#beyourself #talkitout #beingwoman #celebratewomanhood #walk
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